I'm really very awful about keeping up this blog. Probably because I have the commitment level of a five year old; which is none. Hahaha.
I recently went through a dilemma. I REALLY, REALLY would love to be a veterinarian at a zoo. I have my undergrad degree, a variety and good quantity of experiences related to the field, my test scores aren't awful and many great people behind my letters of recommendation. The next step would be vet school. I have already applied twice and been rejected.
I'm discouraged, and it's not due to the failure I'm facing with applications. I've been working in the veterinary field for awhile. The periodicals, that come into clinics I've been working in, have been documenting a downward trend in job availability. Recent students I've met, who are in process to graduate from veterinary school, are saying that they plan on more school along with residencies and internships; just to be competitive for entry level jobs.
I have realized that I don't want to do that. I don't want to plan on 6 - 8 more years of school, after the 8 - 10 more admissions attempts. I don't want to get to where the other things in my life take off; like having a family or buying a house (like a grown-up), and then having to choose between time and experiences with people I love or focusing on school for a career. I don't want to give up the lifestyle I envision for raising children because I'm struggling to pay bills and school loans.
So I'm having to find a new career with a new career path. I greatly enjoy conservation, and mostly ecosystems within that category. This isn't too far off from where I'm starting, but I have no experiences to help me. I also have only a very little idea of which direction to head; I don't even have a job title or description of what I think could be the end goal, going down this path. I'm winging it, and I'm terrified.
I recently acquired a new, full time job. Now, I have two. I can't financially afford transitioning to the new one, but I can't career-wise leave the second. Putting those two schedules together has been a nightmare.
My new job is in a state park. I get to be outside all day, it's great. An interesting thing happened there the other day. To preface this, I continually think of myself and my peers as children; I don't think we have enough ducks in a row to be adults. A coworker and I were supposed to go clean some campsites that were five miles or so from the gate, and we were told to drive the chevy maintenance truck there. My coworker said she'd drive, but then forgot her license. As I had mine, I drove. I had no experience driving trucks of that size, on any road. The road we took was a dirt road. I was nervous and scared. The trip to the campsites went fine. I drove excellent, there were no close calls. The interesting thing was that, on the way back I noticed that in my mind, I had started to think of myself as an adult.
This surprised me. I still don't know how this mindframe shift is affecting, should affect or how I'm gonna let it affect my life and my views on such.
Also, we saw moose!